Personally I would go for audacity.

From Oxford Dictionary “A

willingness to take bold risks”

It can be the worst thing to do, as in treating the cheeks in an audacious way, as in letting a person die, if they have the courage to act?

Is there any sense in positive and negative words for your audacity? Why was the question “AUDIDACITY” not answered? It did capture a contradiction element.

If you are a non-SPEAKER then you are getting a good start.